Forgotten

I am INFURIATED but at the same time I find It funny. It is rare for me to argue with people going with the same school with me because most of the time I get along with them. But can you believe it? I as in ME argued with my Ex. Okay 1^st of all, we’re already ex, and secondly I never argued with him before we broke up. Wait did I say NEVER? Yup I mean never.

Haha got you feeling curious now haven’t I? Bet you’re dying to know what we’re arguing about. Well, you’re lucky because I’ve decide to share it here. Okay, it all started when one of my stepsister IM me am I moving to a new house and changing school. I never need to guess because my sixth sense have already told me it was Snoopy. (Great sixth sense huh?) Although I am 95% sure it’s him, but I was afraid I would accused the wrong person …if the 5% is right. So I confront him bout it. Anyway let’s just skip all the talking part and I’ll just type the sms.

Me: Hey, did u tel my sis bout my stuff?

Snoopy: Yes I think they deserve to know it, plus again u r their sis…there is no reason to keep the secret.

His biggest mistake is telling me they deserve it. This is my thing (or STUFF that's what I like to call). It is I who decide whether do they deserve to know anot and I have thought of it countless times whether to tell them anot. And you're telling me they deserve to know it after they leave their "SIS" waiting in school for 40mins when they go out to have lunch and come back playing UNO cards and telling me I can go home anytime I want. I was like: WTH I stayed here to help you get ready for your exam and you all are there playing U-N-O. Is that how you treat your sis?

Me: U shud hav told me 1^st. I told u to keep it to urself. Its my decision whether to let them noe anot n u shud respect tat. It isn’t ur choice to make. I told u was bcos of the prefect things nex year nt bcos I wanted to. N most importantly, I wasn’t sure bout my dad’s decision for me. So THANK YOU for making my life more complicated as it is.

Snoopy: Ya…Seriously you will never understand my feelings…And you don’t understand it at all…Frankly I ask you…When your sis will you help them? Did you understand them? Do you ever think what I’ve must go through? I’m not tht simple.. I understand what you’ve got to go through but can you at least think about others? You want to angry then angry la..Plus again the last time I keep your secret got me in trouble with your sis.

Now you're telling me you're not that simple? Seriously? Do you know how many people wish they had at least half of your life? You had everything. You've got a supportive family, great connection with siblings, middle class life, good results, head prefect and chairman of Red Crescent Society, plenty of friends, good with teachers and most importantly a healthy body. People like you can understand what I have gone through? I'm also curious what kind of secrets I have that could bring you trouble....honestly...you make my stuff sound so....dangerous?

Argh and don't come asking me will I help them. (Dark Blue text) Ps: Notice some words were missing from that sentence? I've got 'scoldings' from my friends for helping them. They told me I should rest since PMR ended and whatever I'm doing is useless. His second biggest mistake is the (Red Text). I couldnt't help laughing reading that sentence because I remembered just 2 weeks ago Yoon Foon and I were having a conversation in the auditorium.

Yoon Foon: Do you think we should mop the floor?

Me: Lol don't want la, need a lot of hardwork and I lazy la.

Yoon Foon: Not us ma. We can ask the cleaners to mop.

Me: Don't want la, then they all very pity. Don't want give them so much hard work.

Yoon Foon: You do lo.

Me: I do lo.

Yoon Foon: You know? You can help other people but don't help until you gotto sacrifice yourself.

Me: ....lol as long as I'm not dead then can le.

Yoon Foon: Suit yourself.

You see? Don't you find it funny my friends keep telling me to stop killing myself for others and here is he telling me to care for others?

Me: Yes I am jus a selfish, stuckup greedy gal. I dun giv a damn bout any1 except myself, haven’t u noe tat oredi? Oh n nt to mention im aso evil, mean n manipulative. But do u noe I hav my reasons for keeping it. I even kept it frm most of my frens moreover them. N those r my stuff, except for the prefect craps, u dun need to care 4 the rest. N btw wat secrets do I hav tat I told u n gt u in trouble? Im reali curious here.

And here is when I decided to pour my anger out through writing blog. I reread every MSG as I type and I realize I might a bit too harsh. But before I could say anything anymore....here comes another msg....

Snoppy: Just put all the blame on me la...Is all my fault...if not because of me your life wont be so miserable...if not because of me you sure will be more better off..I don't want to argue with you, cause the more i argue with you the more it hurts myself too...So i'm sorry...You can pretend you don't even know me, just pretend me as a failure...Pretend me tht i'm the person who make you miserable ba.

Me: = = ugh, do you noe i m dis close of strangling myself to death. U jus dun gt it n u make assumptions. U noe wat, i dun wana argue v u too. Lets jus stop here.

Snoopy: Just assume me as a useless person a total failure person...If not because of me you will be better off..Just think of me as garbage and throw me aside.. And just put all the blame and all the fault to me.

Me: Argh, u c? Get wat i mean? Tel me, hav i ever treat u as garbage, as a loser or failure b4? U jus assume everything. Argh!

He is making me feeling guilty for something I have never done. Have I ever look down on him before? As fas as I could remember, I don't remember hating him or what he said....throwing him away before have I? Anyway thats all for now because he did not reply me after that. I promise I'll give you the latest update of his reply....if he replies.